The Wilson's: January 2012

Friday, January 27, 2012

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

I feel like this is normal, at least I hope it is... does every mom feel like this? The enormous amount of guilt as your baby cries as you walk away, the clinging to your leg, not to mention the drop your heart makes to your legs when you, the mom, the one that gave birth gets the least amount of time with the most important person in your life on a daily basis....
I think Will and I have both been feeling like there's just not enough time for each other lately, not enough time for all the kisses, all the playing, and all the snuggles we want to get in after a long day.
Most days Will is at Mama Michelle's I rush in to pick him up, he runs to me and gives me a big bear hug, usually we exchange a peck or two before he ~~writes me off~~ goes back to playing. I don't know if its the other kids, the fun toys, or what but he is never ready to leave. Which is a good thing, a GREAT thing.
Once we get settled in the car with our clothes and art projects we talk about the day, sing and jibber jabber to the highway to make the haul home. Then is one excitement after the next as we greet Moomer (Boomer), get the mail, and bring in our treasures from the day. By this time lil man is usually hungry, if I'm lucky we can fit in a quick workout or throw in the occasianal load of laundry but then its dinner, bath, play for a bit and bed. All in the 2 hours we have together in the evening.
With Will in an all time Mamamamama phase it has started to weigh on my heart. Does he need me more? I know he certainly wants me more, but does he NEED me more. Along with Wills age telling him he needs to have mamamama all the time, I wonder if I am harming him by coming to his rescue every time he thinks he needs me... maybe if I didn't cater to this and let it go more it wouldn't be an issue. But how do you say no after not seeing them all day? You need me Will? SURE You want 3 mananas (bananas) for dinner Will? SURE You want to just snuggle and watch cartoons with mamama all night? SURE

Hugging Julius good bye

one day last week we actually got to go outside after work, 60 in January, yay, back to the teens now :(

He loves to snuggle, always has

I could snuggle all night, my little booboo.


Will had his 15 month appointment, all is well! Weight 75% height 50% brains...doc was quite impressed.				Her quote I will always remember: "Ashley, he's such a good little baby." As will is terrorizing the room I smirk "No, do you remember... he was a very sick little baby, and every time I've seen him he's been in such a great mood, even on his worst of days, and so smart. Keep doing whatever your doing."	Thanks doc.

Isn't this what everyone's purse looks like in the morning?

Eating his favorite, Mananans

I just signed Will up for swim classes, and I'm trying to plan some more fun little dates for us. I know it doesn't help that it is winter and we are stuck inside and bored....and along with the busy weeks we have had a lot of things on the weekends as well. Mainly I am trying to find some balance but when I look in those sweet sweet eyes and know all they want is me, it sure is hard to have any balance in this crazy life.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

2011 vs. 2012

So happy to be snuggled with my little boy last year NYE

This year however, I've become much more accustomed to grabbing a sitter and being out on the town!

Yup that's the hubs... getting low!

Happy New years everyone!

2011 was a great year, with some minor set backs... I lost my amazing grandmother and I have never known a hurt so deep. But knowing she is watching down on me as a momma and helping me to make some good choices helps to ease the pain. I have loved all of Will's stages but I LOVE LOVE LOVE like the past 3 months, he can really play, interact, talk, and communicate so much! Its like all the sudden one day he woke up and said, "ok I'm a big boy now momma, start treating me like one." Makes me so excited for all the stages to come.
Okay... I know I've said it before but I am pumped for 2012, and I really hope I am not shooting myself in the foot... Just hoping for some big changes for it, to better our life a little and ease some of the everyday life woes.

I hope everyone had a fantastic new year and is starting off the year well. I had a hard time getting back into my groove after the lil break, but were back.in.action!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Our Christmas entertainment

4 more Christmas's...

While we do have a few Christmas's it is nice because they are spread out, gives a chance to clean up and re-boot before the next one! We had so much fun at all of them and of course a certain little guy got way way spoiled at all of them!

Peyton and William, sweet cousins.

Will got his Cozy Coupe! This thing is great I remember having one when I was little and I know Will is going to be the hot rod in the neighborhood this summer. Peyton was so nice and pushed Will around all night.

Happy boy.

Gift opening: this year: practice, next year: its on!

And a tunnel, Will loves crawling through stuff so this is perfect!

We had a slumber party at this Christmas which was a lot of fun, kids could play and momma and dada enjoyed some cocktails! Don't the kids looked pooped the next morning, lol

My mom opening some gifts with Will, some is an understatement already had the dreaded talk that next year we've GOT to tone.it.down.

Christmas at papa Jims

Will would lift his hands up and everyone would CHEER he thought he ruled the world!

A new decoration for the basement, score!

And last but not least my "friend" Christmas party!

Will, Annabelle, and Dom

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

A magical Christmas celebration

I just never knew, I never even fathomed how incredibly magical and special Christmas time would be once I had children to celebrate it with! Last year Will blessed us with his first laugh on Christmas and I thought we would never be able to beat that amazing gift, boy was I wrong. I had such a great time this year, playing santa, making food, and trying to grab hold tight of all of these memories.

No matter what I ever say, no matter how much I kick and scream....this I know this: we.are.blessed.

I loved creating some new family traditions for Luke, Will, and I and I hope things that we can keep adding to each year. We kept up with our tradition of gathering an ornament each year, and thanks to Michelle Will made us an awesome hand print ornament, momma double wrapped this thing with bubble wrap and will treasure it always. With Will still on meds and not 100% we skipped Christmas service this year and relaxed as a family. We built a fire, opened some presents and ate dinner. After Will went to bed Luke and I attempted to watch Its a wonderful life we lasted about 20 minutes. I tried a crock pot breakfast casserole from pintrest so our breakfast was all ready for us in the morning, I'd like to make something ahead every year and spend every minute I can soaking up all the memories instead of being in the kitchen. It was pretty yummy too!

The awesome thing about loving this year so much was knowing that each year I'm sure to love it more and more... the excitement, the magic, and the memories. I hope everyone had a very merry Christmas with all their family and friends.

Building a fire with dada

momma got some new shoes! And get this Luke looked on pintrest to see exactly what nude pumps I have been wanting! It took the boy just about 10 years to go pick me out something I can wear, but he did it! And I love them! And he was pretty happy with his ipad 2 also! We've had some set backs but hoping 2012 is AMAZING and what better way to kick it off than with a new gadget. Luke was so surprised and excited!